There’s Hope here
We know that every person has a particular history and unique potential. We believe that every person deserves access to the resources and opportunities to improve their life, at their own pace. Read some of our clients’ stories and see how far hope can take you.
CORINNE’S STORY
EMILIE’S STORY
STEPHANIE’S STORY
Corinne, resident at The Oaks, the permanent residence facility of Shepherds of Good Hope’s Managed Alcohol Program
CORRINE’S STORY
When it seemed she’d lost everything, Corinne found her path to recovery.
When Corinne arrived at Shepherds of Good Hope she had lost a lot: her home, her job, her boyfriend and her family. But after all that loss, she found her path to recovery.
“In all of my 51 years, this is the happiest I have ever been.”
– Corinne, resident at The Oaks“A FUNCTIONAL ALCOHOLIC”
Corinne describes herself as having been “a functional alcoholic.” She started drinking when she was 33, and while she drank every day, she managed to hold down a job at a downtown Ottawa hotel, and had a boyfriend and a social life. She hid her drinking from her friends, family and her employer.
But as Corinne’s drinking habit worsened, she lost her job and could no longer keep her alcoholism a secret. With the support of her loved ones, she entered and completed a rehab program, but relapsed soon after.
When Corinne drank, she would often “drunk-dial” her parents, accusing them of ruining her life. When they stopped answering her calls, she moved on to calling other relatives and friends. Eventually, they also made the difficult choice of cutting Corinne, and her erratic and disruptive behaviour, out of their lives.
Living in small community south of Ottawa, Corinne felt isolated. She had no means of transportation and no job. She was drunk every day. Finally, in desperation, her boyfriend packed up her clothing and kicked her out of their home.
Scared, angry and alone, Corinne didn’t know where to turn. “I had never had any experience with homelessness or living on the street,” Corinne remembers.
DIAGNOSED AND STABILIZED
Fortunately, Shepherds was there for her. She was admitted to the Women’s Special Care Unit, where she lived for several months while her condition stabilized. Medical professionals diagnosed her with bipolar disorder and prescribed medication to manage her condition; the team at Shepherds helped her learn how to stabilize her mental health.
Once stabilized, she entered Shepherds’ internationally-renowned Managed Alcohol Program (MAP). Corinne’s health continued to improve, and she was offered a chance to move to The Oaks, the MAP’s supportive living facility. She became one of its first residents.
A LIFE TRANSFORMED
When the time was right, Corinne decided to reconnect with her parents. She was extremely nervous. She didn’t know if she could undo the years of damage caused by the anger and verbal abuse she had directed at them. Would they forgive her?
Her parents agreed to visit her for Christmas at The Oaks. When they arrived, Corinne started to cry. They forgave her. These days she talks with her mother and father on a weekly basis.
Today, Corinne’s life has been transformed thanks to the dedication of The Oaks staff and her own hard work. She starts her day off with a coffee and can often be seen carrying a water bottle. She’s chatty and upbeat. Occasionally she will spend an evening with friends. She has no desire to return to her binge-drinking days.
When asked what life is like today, Corinne pauses and collects her thoughts: “In all of my 51 years, this is the happiest I have ever been.”
“We all know that feeling of isolation, but no one should feel alone. We all need support from time to time.”
– Emilie Belanger, Shepherds of Good Hope volunteer
EMILIE’S STORY
People experiencing homelessness too often feel forgotten, so when the COVID-19 pandemic hit Ottawa, Emilie knew she needed to help. She wanted to make sure no one was left behind during this unprecedented time.
“COVID-19 took us all by storm, and I felt it was important for me to do more, personally, to help support people experiencing homelessness in our city,” Emilie says. After three years of volunteering in the soup kitchen at Shepherds of Good Hope on the weekends, Emilie answered the call and increased her commitment to volunteering five days a week.
“I was delighted to see how many other young people with a passion for social justice stepped up during this time of need.”
Even Emilie’s parents started volunteering.
Her commitment throughout the pandemic inspired other young people to volunteer, and for the first time in Shepherds of Good Hope’s history, we had more people under the age of 30 volunteering than any other age group.
As an only child, Emilie says she finds the holidays can be a bit lonely. It’s one of the reasons she likes to volunteer in the soup kitchen.
“It’s nice to be part of something bigger than myself and my immediate family. I love volunteering because everyone makes you feel included. At Shepherds of Good Hope, you are never judged – everyone is here to support one another,” she says.
She even decided to create a new Thanksgiving tradition with her family – this year, they would all spend the holiday together volunteering in the soup kitchen.
Emilie’s commitment inspires so many people, especially young people, to give back to their community and to support people experiencing homelessness.
“Even when we had to stay physically apart, the support of donors and the kindness of our community reminded us all that we’re in this together.”
One thing Emilie missed about volunteering before COVID-19 was talking with the people who visit the soup kitchen. Over the spring and summer, when Shepherds of Good Hope had to serve meals to people outdoors so people they could physically distance.
“This meant we couldn’t chat with community members as often. I love to cook and I love to see people’s reactions after they have some of the food I’ve prepared. I missed this part the most.”
Shepherds of Good Hope is grateful for our dedicated team of volunteers — people like Emilie, who are helping us provide homes for all, community for all, and hope for all.
“Over the six months I stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope, the staff were always there for me even when I was at my worst and felt truly lost.”
STEPHANIE’S STORY
By age 33, Stephanie’s life was in chaos.
She had three children, her parents had split up and her mother had moved in with her and her kids. But, like a cruel joke, at a time when she needed help the most, Parkinson’s disease took over her mother’s life and her addictions took over her’s.
Things went from bad to worse until one pivotal night. Walking with her baby in her arms and her two older children trailing behind her, she was searching the alleys for her dealer to get her next hit.
It was in that moment, holding her child with one hand and her drug dealer handing her crack in the other, that she knew things had to change.
Stephanie knew this wasn’t the life her kids deserved. She had to do the most difficult thing she has ever done. “I will never forget sitting my three kids down to tell them, ‘Mommy is sick and can’t provide for you anymore’ and that they were going to be adopted by people who could love and care for them properly.”
GROWING UP
Stephanie was born and raised in Arnprior – a valley girl through and through – her childhood was much like anyone else’s. Her parents were loving and supportive.
Of course, life wasn’t always perfect. Her parents were working alcoholics with full-time jobs. She grew up with people who had their own addictions, but it never stopped them from supporting her when she needed help.
Fresh out of high school, Stephanie enrolled in a downtown Ottawa beauty school because she loved, and still loves, doing hair and make-up. It’s been a huge part of her life and a way for her to be artistic and feel good.
But for a valley girl, Stephanie found the city and downtown nightlife enticing – the dark streets with bright lights and easy access to any drug you could imagine. It became addictive very quickly. She started with pot and ended with crack cocaine.
A SUPPORTIVE COMMUNITY
The first night she stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope’s shelter, she cried herself to sleep. She was scared she didn’t know when exactly her life went off the rails.
“Over the six months I stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope, the staff were always there for me, even when I was at my worst and felt truly lost.”
StephanieFrom food and clothing, to providing a supportive community, and ultimately to helping her find employment and a home of her own, Shepherds of Good Hope was there every step of the way.
In 2016, Stephanie was now housed, but still needed to support herself. The best way she knew how to make money was to panhandle downtown. She would tell people how she just found a place to live and asked people to give her a buck or two to help.
One day, a woman stopped and offered her a number of household items she was giving away. Lamps, side tables, kitchen appliances and more were dropped off at Stephanie’s apartment later that day, all thanks to the kindness of a stranger who saw someone in need and showed compassion.
It was at that time that Stephanie’s life would change forever. Her health took a turn for the worst. She had a stroke in February of 2016. Stephanie’s life now consisted of a lot of physical and emotional pain, she had to relearn how to talk and walk again. She struggled with memory loss and had a long road to recovery ahead.
Her life truly did change forever, it was like trying to move a mountain – a struggle that can’t be fought alone. Stephanie took control of her life again, she stopped doing drugs. She is now 4 years sober from crack cocaine. She has kept her home and she also landed a job at Shepherds of Good Hope as a Peer Support Worker. As a Peer Worker Stephanie runs a beauty and hygiene program for the homeless women staying at the shelter.
“I am truly happy. I love coming to work every day. Not only have I reconnected with my passion for cosmetology but, I am able to put it to good use for some of Ottawa’s most vulnerable women.”
JESSE’S STORY
JIMMY’S STORY
SIM’S STORY
“Shepherds opened their doors to me when no one else would. They saved my life.”
– Jesse, former Shepherds of Good Hope resident and current PhD student
JESSE’S STORY
Jesse was born in a small Métis-Cree community in northern Saskatchewan.
His family has a history of trauma and addiction. Growing up, he struggled with understanding his identity, and eventually turned to drinking and drugs to help escape the pain he felt. He tried crack for the first time when he was 21, and for the next 11 years, his entire life revolved around getting high.
THE HARDEST YEARS
He would do anything to get his next fix, and that’s why, in 2006, Jesse was arrested for robbery. When it came time for sentencing, the judge took sympathy on him and agreed to release him under the condition he enter rehab and kick his habit. He enrolled in a rehab program in Ottawa, but soon ended up back on the streets. His addiction was too powerful.
Jesse states that the next two years were the hardest of years of his life. His drug completely took over his existence. He found himself sleeping in stairwells, alleyways and outside. He lost all hope.
And then he found Shepherds of Good Hope.
“I HAD NOTHING”
“Shepherds of Good Hope was there for me in my darkest hours. The worst period of my addiction was in 2007 and 2008, when I was most active in my drug use. During that time, when no other shelter would take me, I stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope. They were there for me during this critical time in my life.” says Jesse.
“I had nothing: no clothes, no food, no money and nowhere to stay. It was a brutally cold Ottawa winter. I would find a warm meal to eat and bed to sleep in at Shepherds. They were my only hope. Shepherds opened their doors to me when no one else would.” Jesse continues.
“Shepherds of Good Hope kept me alive.”
“I was that guy you would see begging on the corner of Murray Street and King Edward Avenue. I would wander around the ByWard Market, begging for money to buy drugs. I used to visit the Shepherds of Good Hope clothing program for my monthly ‘shopping.’ Because I was homeless, I couldn’t really wash my clothes, so I would use this program to help stay clean.”
RECONNECTING
In 2008, Jesse was arrested again. The judge gave him a choice: take rehab seriously or go to prison. During his time in rehab he managed to earn a high-school diploma and entered into a bridging program at Carleton University. From there, he enrolled at York University for his undergraduate degree and studied Indigenous History.
During his studies, he explored his family history. He reconnected with his creator.
He also learned about the intergenerational trauma faced by many Indigenous people, and recognized his place in that cycle of trauma. He discovered how unresolved trauma could manifest in self-destructive behaviours, and identified this as the root cause of his addiction issues.
More than 21% of Shepherds’ clients identify as Indigenous, and many share a history of trauma and abuse that has led to addiction and mental health challenges.
“INSIDE ALL OF US IS A PERSON WHO CAN SUCCEED”
Jesse continued his education as a master’s student at Waterloo University. In 2016, he was awarded the Vanier Canada Graduate Scholarship and the Trudeau Foundation Scholarship — the top two doctoral scholarships in the country. He is the resident scholar of Indigenous Homelessness at the Canadian Observatory on Homelessness. He was also awarded the Governor General’s Academic Medal.
Last September, Jesse began working towards a PhD at York University.
“Shepherds of Good Hope saved my life,” he says. “I’ve never forgotten my past, and the experiences which have helped shape who I am today. I am forever thankful Shepherds was there for me in my time of need. I am grateful they didn’t turn their backs on me because of my addiction. I’m grateful they helped give me a second chance.”
Jesse is also a monthly donor to Shepherds.
“Inside all of us is a person who can succeed, regardless of our past or present afflictions, he says. “Your donation to the Shepherds of Good Hope could be helping the next Trudeau-Vanier scholar, the next Governor General’s medallist.”
“It’s nice to wake up in the same place every day, instead of on the streets. It’s scary out there.”
– Jimmy, resident at The Oaks, the permanent residence facility of Shepherds of Good Hope’s Managed Alcohol Program
JIMMY’S STORY
When Jimmy first came to Shepherds of Good Hope in 2014, he had been living on the street for almost seven years. But it hadn’t always been that way.
Jimmy had owned and operated his own business in Northern Ontario, had a family, a wife and a home. When his business began to fail, he started to drink to help cope with the stress. When the business closed, his drinking got worse. When his wife couldn’t take his drinking any longer, she left him.
FEEDING HIS ADDICTION
Before he knew it, Jimmy was living on the streets. He was drinking whatever he could get his hands on to feed his addiction, including dangerous substances like mouthwash, rubbing alcohol and overproof cooking wine.
Jimmy spent eight months sleeping under a parked transport trailer.
Fighting to survive the harsh realities of life on the streets was exhausting, and by the time Jimmy arrived at our emergency shelter, he had lost all hope.
IT’S THE SMALL THINGS
Jimmy spent six months in Shepherds of Good Hope’s downtown Managed Alcohol Program (MAP), recovering from the trauma of life on the streets. There, Shepherds helped stabilize Jimmy, providing him with a warm place to sleep and three meals a day, and turned him away from drinking dangerous non-consumables.
When he was ready, he moved to The Oaks, the MAP’s supportive living facility, where he still lives.
When he speaks about his journey, Jimmy focuses on small things that others might easily take for granted: “It’s nice to wake up in the same place every day, instead of on the streets. You get beat up, robbed on the streets. It’s scary out there, especially at night. Not being able to shower, not knowing if you’ll eat. Now I have none of those worries,” he says.
“Now my biggest worry is just hoping this place never shuts down.”
UNEXPECTED PHONE CALLS
One of the greatest gifts Shepherds of Good Hope’s supportive housing gives its residents is the gift of reuniting them with their estranged family members.
Because of the stability our supportive housing facilities provide, it’s not uncommon for our residents to reunite with estranged family members. We often see a daughter reconnect with her parents, a father reconcile with his children, or siblings speak for the first time in years.
Recently, Jimmy received a phone call from his nephew, an OPP officer who lives in Northern Ontario. He had seen Jimmy in an episode of CBC’s The Fifth Estate that featured a story about The Oaks’ innovative harm-reduction program. He wanted to reach out to tell his uncle he was proud of him.
Not long after, Jimmy’s ex-wife called him. It was the first time they had spoken in years. She told him she was hopeful for his future.
And for the first time in a long time, Jimmy is hopeful for his future as well.
After nearly losing his connection to his language and culture in residential school, today Sim in an Elder and has reconnected with his family. Today, Sim is happy.
SIM’S STORY
Sim was born with a different name: Akearok. It means stomach in Inuktitut. When he was 6 years old, he was sent to a residential school. He was stripped of his identity and given an English name, Simeonie, or Sim for short, and a number. Sim’s was E51655. But he’s much more than a number.
He is a residential school survivor, a father and a grandfather, a teacher and an Elder. And for nearly 20 years, he was homeless.
“I thought I would die on the streets. If Shepherds of Good Hope can help me, they can help anyone,” he says.
He went to a residential school until he was 18 years old. At the residential school, if a student was caught speaking Inuktitut, they would be beaten. That was Sim’s life for 12 years. The trauma he endured has haunted him for many years. It’s one of the reasons he ended up on the streets, and then later, at Shepherds of Good Hope.
Sim grew up in Igloolik, a small community in Nunavut. His family and culture has been his strength over the years. His mother taught him to always smile, to speak kindly about others, and always help people when you can.
As a kid, he liked to play basketball. Sim liked to hunt and live off the land with his family. He was motivated to do well in school and go to post-secondary school.
When Sim was 19 years old, he heard about opportunities and universities available in Ottawa, and so decided to move south. When he arrived in Ottawa, he enrolled in the adult high school to complete his high school diploma. Sim then went on to Carleton University, where he studied English, law and politics for three years. During this time, he met his now ex-wife, and they had five boys in six years. Sim worked as a custodian to support his family while also going to school.
In the mid-1990s, Sim got involved in negotiations with two national Inuit organizations, Inuit Tapiriit Kanatami and Pauktuutit Inuit Women of Canada in their fight for an acknowledgement from the Federal Government and churches about the residential school system.
Being a part of the negotiations was such an important experience for Sim. He felt he had a purpose. Unfortunately, doing this important work also meant re-living trauma that he hadn’t healed from. To cope, Sim started drinking more and more to numb the pain. His marriage fell apart. His wife left him and took his kids with her. With no other family in Ottawa, Sim found myself homeless.
“That’s how I came to Shepherds of Good Hope. I was left with no wife, no family, and no home. Everything came crumbling down around me.”
Sim started doing drugs and drinking heavily every day. He was in and out of jail. Sleeping in the shelters was rough, but he managed to keep himself busy. It helped to take his mind off the trauma he experienced.
When Prime Minister Stephen Harper apologized to all residential school survivors in 2008, Sim says he felt an incredible weight lift off his shoulders. It truly meant a lot, he says, to hear an apology on behalf of all Canadians for the years of trauma he and many others endured in residential schools.
While it has helped Sim move on, the apology didn’t completely erase the pain of those years. By this point in his story, he had been homeless for nearly 15 years. Sim thought he would be on the street forever. It wasn’t until a few years later that he would find a place to call home.
Ray, a staff member at Shepherds of Good Hope, got to know Sim over the years. He knew about Sim’s history of trauma and knew he could help Sim find happiness again. One day in 2012, Ray asked if Sim had a minute to chat. They went into Ray’s office and he told Sim about the program at The Oaks.
It was a place where Sim would have his own room, his own bed, and three meals a day. There would be an hourly pour – a medically-prescribed dose of alcohol so Sim wouldn’t go through withdrawals. That’s how Sim ended up living at The Oaks and he’s been here ever since.
“I love it here. I have a family here. I have been able to reconnect with my culture, my family and find my smile again.”
Today, Sim smiles most when he’s teaching as an Elder or helping someone learn Inuktitut, the language he nearly lost while in residential school.
It’s because of The Oaks and Shepherds of Good Hope that Sim has been able to access counselling services, mental health nurses, and manage his alcohol use. Now that Sim has a permanent residence, his children can come visit him. His sons come once a month and his youngest brings Sim’s grandchild. He gets to be a grandfather or ataatatsiaq, as he is called in Inuktitut.
None of this would have been possible if it wasn’t for supporters like you. Thank you for caring about people who have gone through trauma or who struggle with their mental health and addictions.
There’s Hope Here
We know that every person has a particular history and unique potential. We believe that every person deserves access to the resources and opportunities to improve their life, at their own pace. Read some of our clients’ stories and see how far hope can take you.
CORRINE’S STORY
CORRINE’S STORY
Corinne, resident at The Oaks, the permanent residence facility of Shepherds of Good Hope’s Managed Alcohol Program
When it seemed she’d lost everything, Corinne found her path to recovery.
When Corinne arrived at Shepherds of Good Hope she had lost a lot: her home, her job, her boyfriend and her family. But after all that loss, she found her path to recovery.
“In all of my 51 years, this is the happiest I have ever been.”
– Corinne, resident at The Oaks“A FUNCTIONAL ALCOHOLIC”
Corinne describes herself as having been “a functional alcoholic.” She started drinking when she was 33, and while she drank every day, she managed to hold down a job at a downtown Ottawa hotel, and had a boyfriend and a social life. She hid her drinking from her friends, family and her employer.
But as Corinne’s drinking habit worsened, she lost her job and could no longer keep her alcoholism a secret. With the support of her loved ones, she entered and completed a rehab program, but relapsed soon after.
When Corinne drank, she would often “drunk-dial” her parents, accusing them of ruining her life. When they stopped answering her calls, she moved on to calling other relatives and friends. Eventually, they also made the difficult choice of cutting Corinne, and her erratic and disruptive behaviour, out of their lives.
Living in small community south of Ottawa, Corinne felt isolated. She had no means of transportation and no job. She was drunk every day. Finally, in desperation, her boyfriend packed up her clothing and kicked her out of their home.
Scared, angry and alone, Corinne didn’t know where to turn. “I had never had any experience with homelessness or living on the street,” Corinne remembers.
DIAGNOSED AND STABILIZED
Fortunately, Shepherds was there for her. She was admitted to the Women’s Special Care Unit, where she lived for several months while her condition stabilized. Medical professionals diagnosed her with bipolar disorder and prescribed medication to manage her condition; the team at Shepherds helped her learn how to stabilize her mental health.
Once stabilized, she entered Shepherds’ internationally-renowned Managed Alcohol Program (MAP). Corinne’s health continued to improve, and she was offered a chance to move to The Oaks, the MAP’s supportive living facility. She became one of its first residents.
A LIFE TRANSFORMED
When the time was right, Corinne decided to reconnect with her parents. She was extremely nervous. She didn’t know if she could undo the years of damage caused by the anger and verbal abuse she had directed at them. Would they forgive her?
Her parents agreed to visit her for Christmas at The Oaks. When they arrived, Corinne started to cry. They forgave her. These days she talks with her mother and father on a weekly basis.
Today, Corinne’s life has been transformed thanks to the dedication of The Oaks staff and her own hard work. She starts her day off with a coffee and can often be seen carrying a water bottle. She’s chatty and upbeat. Occasionally she will spend an evening with friends. She has no desire to return to her binge-drinking days.
When asked what life is like today, Corinne pauses and collects her thoughts: “In all of my 51 years, this is the happiest I have ever been.”
EMILIE’S STORY
EMILIE’S STORY
“People experiencing homelessness too often feel forgotten, especially during this pandemic. I knew I needed to step up and help.”
– Emilie Belanger, Shepherds of Good Hope volunteer
People experiencing homelessness too often feel forgotten, so when the COVID-19 pandemic hit Ottawa, Emilie knew she needed to help. She wanted to make sure no one was left behind during this unprecedented time.
“COVID-19 took us all by storm, and I felt it was important for me to do more, personally, to help support people experiencing homelessness in our city,” Emilie says. After three years of volunteering in the soup kitchen at Shepherds of Good Hope on the weekends, Emilie answered the call and increased her commitment to volunteering five days a week.
“I was delighted to see how many other young people with a passion for social justice stepped up during this time of need.”
Even Emilie’s parents started volunteering.
Her commitment throughout the pandemic inspired other young people to volunteer, and for the first time in Shepherds of Good Hope’s history, we had more people under the age of 30 volunteering than any other age group.
As an only child, Emilie says she finds the holidays can be a bit lonely. It’s one of the reasons she likes to volunteer in the soup kitchen.
“It’s nice to be part of something bigger than myself and my immediate family. I love volunteering because everyone makes you feel included. At Shepherds of Good Hope, you are never judged – everyone is here to support one another,” she says.
She even decided to create a new Thanksgiving tradition with her family – this year, they would all spend the holiday together volunteering in the soup kitchen.
Emilie’s commitment inspires so many people, especially young people, to give back to their community and to support people experiencing homelessness.
“Even when we had to stay physically apart, the support of donors and the kindness of our community reminded us all that we’re in this together.”
One thing Emilie missed about volunteering before COVID-19 was talking with the people who visit the soup kitchen. Over the spring and summer, when Shepherds of Good Hope had to serve meals to people outdoors so people they could physically distance.
“This meant we couldn’t chat with community members as often. I love to cook and I love to see people’s reactions after they have some of the food I’ve prepared. I missed this part the most.”
Shepherds of Good Hope is grateful for our dedicated team of volunteers — people like Emilie, who are helping us provide homes for all, community for all, and hope for all.
STEPHANIE’S STORY
STEPHANIE’S STORY
“Over the six months I stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope, the staff were always there for me even when I was at my worst and felt truly lost.”
By age 33, Stephanie’s life was in chaos.
She had three children, her parents had split up and her mother had moved in with her and her kids. But, like a cruel joke, at a time when she needed help the most, Parkinson’s disease took over her mother’s life and her addictions took over her’s.
Things went from bad to worse until one pivotal night. Walking with her baby in her arms and her two older children trailing behind her, she was searching the alleys for her dealer to get her next hit.
It was in that moment, holding her child with one hand and her drug dealer handing her crack in the other, that she knew things had to change.
Stephanie knew this wasn’t the life her kids deserved. She had to do the most difficult thing she has ever done. “I will never forget sitting my three kids down to tell them, ‘Mommy is sick and can’t provide for you anymore’ and that they were going to be adopted by people who could love and care for them properly.”
GROWING UP
Stephanie was born and raised in Arnprior – a valley girl through and through – her childhood was much like anyone else’s. Her parents were loving and supportive.
Of course, life wasn’t always perfect. Her parents were working alcoholics with full-time jobs. She grew up with people who had their own addictions, but it never stopped them from supporting her when she needed help.
Fresh out of high school, Stephanie enrolled in a downtown Ottawa beauty school because she loved, and still loves, doing hair and make-up. It’s been a huge part of her life and a way for her to be artistic and feel good.
But for a valley girl, Stephanie found the city and downtown nightlife enticing – the dark streets with bright lights and easy access to any drug you could imagine. It became addictive very quickly. She started with pot and ended with crack cocaine.
A SUPPORTIVE COMMUNITY
The first night she stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope’s shelter, she cried herself to sleep. She was scared she didn’t know when exactly her life went off the rails.
“Over the six months I stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope, the staff were always there for me, even when I was at my worst and felt truly lost.”
StephanieFrom food and clothing, to providing a supportive community, and ultimately to helping her find employment and a home of her own, Shepherds of Good Hope was there every step of the way.
In 2016, Stephanie was now housed, but still needed to support herself. The best way she knew how to make money was to panhandle downtown. She would tell people how she just found a place to live and asked people to give her a buck or two to help.
One day, a woman stopped and offered her a number of household items she was giving away. Lamps, side tables, kitchen appliances and more were dropped off at Stephanie’s apartment later that day, all thanks to the kindness of a stranger who saw someone in need and showed compassion.
It was at that time that Stephanie’s life would change forever. Her health took a turn for the worst. She had a stroke in February of 2016. Stephanie’s life now consisted of a lot of physical and emotional pain, she had to relearn how to talk and walk again. She struggled with memory loss and had a long road to recovery ahead.
Her life truly did change forever, it was like trying to move a mountain – a struggle that can’t be fought alone. Stephanie took control of her life again, she stopped doing drugs. She is now 4 years sober from crack cocaine. She has kept her home and she also landed a job at Shepherds of Good Hope as a Peer Support Worker. As a Peer Worker Stephanie runs a beauty and hygiene program for the homeless women staying at the shelter.
“I am truly happy. I love coming to work every day. Not only have I reconnected with my passion for cosmetology but, I am able to put it to good use for some of Ottawa’s most vulnerable women.”
JESSE’S STORY
JESSE’S STORY
“Shepherds opened their doors to me when no one else would. They saved my life.”
– Jesse, former Shepherds of Good Hope resident and current PhD student
Jesse was born in a small Métis-Cree community in northern Saskatchewan.
His family has a history of trauma and addiction. Growing up, he struggled with understanding his identity, and eventually turned to drinking and drugs to help escape the pain he felt. He tried crack for the first time when he was 21, and for the next 11 years, his entire life revolved around getting high.
THE HARDEST YEARS
He would do anything to get his next fix, and that’s why, in 2006, Jesse was arrested for robbery. When it came time for sentencing, the judge took sympathy on him and agreed to release him under the condition he enter rehab and kick his habit. He enrolled in a rehab program in Ottawa, but soon ended up back on the streets. His addiction was too powerful.
Jesse states that the next two years were the hardest of years of his life. His drug completely took over his existence. He found himself sleeping in stairwells, alleyways and outside. He lost all hope.
And then he found Shepherds of Good Hope.
“I HAD NOTHING”
“Shepherds of Good Hope was there for me in my darkest hours. The worst period of my addiction was in 2007 and 2008, when I was most active in my drug use. During that time, when no other shelter would take me, I stayed at Shepherds of Good Hope. They were there for me during this critical time in my life.” says Jesse.
“I had nothing: no clothes, no food, no money and nowhere to stay. It was a brutally cold Ottawa winter. I would find a warm meal to eat and bed to sleep in at Shepherds. They were my only hope. Shepherds opened their doors to me when no one else would.” Jesse continues.
“Shepherds of Good Hope kept me alive.”
“I was that guy you would see begging on the corner of Murray Street and King Edward Avenue. I would wander around the ByWard Market, begging for money to buy drugs. I used to visit the Shepherds of Good Hope clothing program for my monthly ‘shopping.’ Because I was homeless, I couldn’t really wash my clothes, so I would use this program to help stay clean.”
RECONNECTING
In 2008, Jesse was arrested again. The judge gave him a choice: take rehab seriously or go to prison. During his time in rehab he managed to earn a high-school diploma and entered into a bridging program at Carleton University. From there, he enrolled at York University for his undergraduate degree and studied Indigenous History.
During his studies, he explored his family history. He reconnected with his creator.
He also learned about the intergenerational trauma faced by many Indigenous people, and recognized his place in that cycle of trauma. He discovered how unresolved trauma could manifest in self-destructive behaviours, and identified this as the root cause of his addiction issues.
More than 21% of Shepherds’ clients identify as Indigenous, and many share a history of trauma and abuse that has led to addiction and mental health challenges.
“INSIDE ALL OF US IS A PERSON WHO CAN SUCCEED”
Jesse continued his education as a master’s student at Waterloo University. In 2016, he was awarded the Vanier Canada Graduate Scholarship and the Trudeau Foundation Scholarship — the top two doctoral scholarships in the country. He is the resident scholar of Indigenous Homelessness at the Canadian Observatory on Homelessness. He was also awarded the Governor General’s Academic Medal.
Last September, Jesse began working towards a PhD at York University.
“Shepherds of Good Hope saved my life,” he says. “I’ve never forgotten my past, and the experiences which have helped shape who I am today. I am forever thankful Shepherds was there for me in my time of need. I am grateful they didn’t turn their backs on me because of my addiction. I’m grateful they helped give me a second chance.”
Jesse is also a monthly donor to Shepherds.
“Inside all of us is a person who can succeed, regardless of our past or present afflictions,
he says. “Your donation to the Shepherds of Good Hope could be helping the next Trudeau-Vanier scholar, the next Governor General’s medallist.”
JIMMY’S STORY
JIMMY’S STORY
“It’s nice to wake up in the same place every day, instead of on the streets. It’s scary out there.”
– Jimmy, resident at The Oaks, the permanent residence facility of Shepherds of Good Hope’s Managed Alcohol Program
When Jimmy first came to Shepherds of Good Hope in 2014, he had been living on the street for almost seven years. But it hadn’t always been that way.
Jimmy had owned and operated his own business in Northern Ontario, had a family, a wife and a home. When his business began to fail, he started to drink to help cope with the stress. When the business closed, his drinking got worse. When his wife couldn’t take his drinking any longer, she left him.
FEEDING HIS ADDICTION
Before he knew it, Jimmy was living on the streets. He was drinking whatever he could get his hands on to feed his addiction, including dangerous substances like mouthwash, rubbing alcohol and overproof cooking wine.
Jimmy spent eight months sleeping under a parked transport trailer.
Fighting to survive the harsh realities of life on the streets was exhausting, and by the time Jimmy arrived at our emergency shelter, he had lost all hope.
IT’S THE SMALL THINGS
Jimmy spent six months in Shepherds of Good Hope’s downtown Managed Alcohol Program (MAP), recovering from the trauma of life on the streets. There, Shepherds helped stabilize Jimmy, providing him with a warm place to sleep and three meals a day, and turned him away from drinking dangerous non-consumables.
When he was ready, he moved to The Oaks, the MAP’s supportive living facility, where he still lives.
When he speaks about his journey, Jimmy focuses on small things that others might easily take for granted: “It’s nice to wake up in the same place every day, instead of on the streets. You get beat up, robbed on the streets. It’s scary out there, especially at night. Not being able to shower, not knowing if you’ll eat. Now I have none of those worries,” he says.
“Now my biggest worry is just hoping this place never shuts down.”
UNEXPECTED PHONE CALLS
One of the greatest gifts Shepherds of Good Hope’s supportive housing gives its residents is the gift of reuniting them with their estranged family members.
Because of the stability our supportive housing facilities provide, it’s not uncommon for our residents to reunite with estranged family members. We often see a daughter reconnect with her parents, a father reconcile with his children, or siblings speak for the first time in years.
Recently, Jimmy received a phone call from his nephew, an OPP officer who lives in Northern Ontario. He had seen Jimmy in an episode of CBC’s The Fifth Estate that featured a story about The Oaks’ innovative harm-reduction program. He wanted to reach out to tell his uncle he was proud of him.
Not long after, Jimmy’s ex-wife called him. It was the first time they had spoken in years. She told him she was hopeful for his future.
And for the first time in a long time, Jimmy is hopeful for his future as well.
SIM’S STORY
SIM’S STORY
After nearly losing his connection to his language and culture in residential school, today Sim in an Elder and has reconnected with his family. Today, Sim is happy.
Sim was born with a different name: Akearok. It means stomach in Inuktitut. When he was 6 years old, he was sent to a residential school. He was stripped of his identity and given an English name, Simeonie, or Sim for short, and a number. Sim’s was E51655. But he’s much more than a number.
He is a residential school survivor, a father and a grandfather, a teacher and an Elder. And for nearly 20 years, he was homeless.
“I thought I would die on the streets. If Shepherds of Good Hope can help me, they can help anyone,” he says.
He went to a residential school until he was 18 years old. At the residential school, if a student was caught speaking Inuktitut, they would be beaten. That was Sim’s life for 12 years. The trauma he endured has haunted him for many years. It’s one of the reasons he ended up on the streets, and then later, at Shepherds of Good Hope.
Sim grew up in Igloolik, a small community in Nunavut. His family and culture has been his strength over the years. His mother taught him to always smile, to speak kindly about others, and always help people when you can.
As a kid, he liked to play basketball. Sim liked to hunt and live off the land with his family. He was motivated to do well in school and go to post-secondary school.
When Sim was 19 years old, he heard about opportunities and universities available in Ottawa, and so decided to move south. When he arrived in Ottawa, he enrolled in the adult high school to complete his high school diploma. Sim then went on to Carleton University, where he studied English, law and politics for three years. During this time, he met his now ex-wife, and they had five boys in six years. Sim worked as a custodian to support his family while also going to school.
In the mid-1990s, Sim got involved in negotiations with two national Inuit organizations, Inuit Tapiriit Kanatami and Pauktuutit Inuit Women of Canada in their fight for an acknowledgement from the Federal Government and churches about the residential school system.
Being a part of the negotiations was such an important experience for Sim. He felt he had a purpose. Unfortunately, doing this important work also meant re-living trauma that he hadn’t healed from. To cope, Sim started drinking more and more to numb the pain. His marriage fell apart. His wife left him and took his kids with her. With no other family in Ottawa, Sim found myself homeless.
“That’s how I came to Shepherds of Good Hope. I was left with no wife, no family, and no home. Everything came crumbling down around me.”
Sim started doing drugs and drinking heavily every day. He was in and out of jail. Sleeping in the shelters was rough, but he managed to keep himself busy. It helped to take his mind off the trauma he experienced.
When Prime Minister Stephen Harper apologized to all residential school survivors in 2008, Sim says he felt an incredible weight lift off his shoulders. It truly meant a lot, he says, to hear an apology on behalf of all Canadians for the years of trauma he and many others endured in residential schools.
While it has helped Sim move on, the apology didn’t completely erase the pain of those years. By this point in his story, he had been homeless for nearly 15 years. Sim thought he would be on the street forever. It wasn’t until a few years later that he would find a place to call home.
Ray, a staff member at Shepherds of Good Hope, got to know Sim over the years. He knew about Sim’s history of trauma and knew he could help Sim find happiness again. One day in 2012, Ray asked if Sim had a minute to chat. They went into Ray’s office and he told Sim about the program at The Oaks.
It was a place where Sim would have his own room, his own bed, and three meals a day. There would be an hourly pour – a medically-prescribed dose of alcohol so Sim wouldn’t go through withdrawals. That’s how Sim ended up living at The Oaks and he’s been here ever since.
“I love it here. I have a family here. I have been able to reconnect with my culture, my family and find my smile again.”
Today, Sim smiles most when he’s teaching as an Elder or helping someone learn Inuktitut, the language he nearly lost while in residential school.
It’s because of The Oaks and Shepherds of Good Hope that Sim has been able to access counselling services, mental health nurses, and manage his alcohol use. Now that Sim has a permanent residence, his children can come visit him. His sons come once a month and his youngest brings Sim’s grandchild. He gets to be a grandfather or ataatatsiaq, as he is called in Inuktitut.
None of this would have been possible if it wasn’t for supporters like you. Thank you for caring about people who have gone through trauma or who struggle with their mental health and addictions.
KAREN’S STORY
SEAN’S STORY
TEREZA’S STORY
After years of struggling with her addiction to alcohol, Karen lost her home, she lost her way, she lost all hope. The she found Shepherds of Good Hope.
KAREN’S STORY
Growing up in a military family, Karen moved around a lot. Every eighteen months or so, the family would pack their belongings and move to a new city. Karen was born in Germany and moved to eastern Ontario at a young age and then out to the East Coast and back again.
Every time the family moved, Karen’s parents would say “Don’t worry Karen. You’ll be fine. You’ll make new friends. It’ll be alright.”
But it wasn’t alright. Karen lost something dear every time her family moved. Her school. Her friends. Her room. Gone. Just like that.
However, there was always someone who helped her. A teacher. A neighbour. A new best friend. Someone always reached out.
The constant sense of loss followed her into adulthood. Her addiction to alcohol grew over time. She lost her home, her husband and she divorced, and she made the difficult choice of giving over custody of her kids to him.
“That’s when I found myself at Shepherds of Good Hope. By the time you realize what’s happening, you think it’s too late. You’ve lost something else – you’ve lost yourself. You wonder if you have the energy you need to reignite the light.”
The only thing that works, Karen says, is: love, hope and finding someone who cares about you.
Shepherds of Good Hope is filled with people who care about you. Staff, volunteers, and donors all come together and help people just like Karen.
“I moved out of the shelter and into a permanent home at The Oaks, one of Shepherds of Good Hope’s supportive housing residence. I’ll be honest with you, when I first arrived at The Oaks I didn’t think I belonged.”
“I had a normal life before, I was never supposed to end up at a shelter or live with a bunch of strangers.”
But, Karen knew she needed a change. She needed stability in her life and she knew she never wanted to be at a shelter again. “I was not what they call street smart,” she says.
Karen says she has grown to love it here. She has lived at the Oaks for nearly 5 years now and has met some of the most amazing people.
“The staff have helped me rekindle my relationship with my younger sister Abby after many years. I have created wonderful memories.”
If you knew Karen before, you’d know she loves to sing.
“The good news is, here, they’ve helped me find my voice again”
“I lived in fear, constantly. I was losing close friends to overdoses. They had so much to live for – but there just weren’t the right supports available.”
– Sean, Founder of the Drug Users’ Advocacy League (DUAL)
SEAN’S STORY
When Sean was a kid growing up in in the Maritimes, the only thing, he says, that kept him safe and in control was the baseball field across the street. It got him out of the house. It felt like home. It was a refuge from his abuser – his father.
Sean had to leave home at 13 to escape his alcoholic and abusive father’s cruelty. With nowhere else to go, He found himself living in the woods near his childhood home.
“For the first time, I experienced what it was like to be homeless, and it was terrifying. I felt like I had no one,” he says.
When the authorities found him, he was sent to a home for children who had nowhere to go. It was a place that was supposed to be safe for children. His first night there, Sean was sexually assaulted.
“My trust was shattered. After that, I wanted nothing to do with any social services – I didn’t trust them.”
As he grew up and moved away, Sean tried to move forward. He was accepted into St. Thomas University. It was there that he met a girl and she became pregnant. “We were so happy,” he remembers. But tragically, his girlfriend and his unborn child died in her seventh month of pregnancy.
“I was devastated.”
And that was it, as Sean put it, “I just didn’t care anymore.” He thought his new family would help him rise above the traumas he had suffered through in his short life. He had a “friend” who had just started using heavy drugs, and he asked Sean if Sean had ever tried them. Sean lied and said, he had.
“I stuck out my arm, and that was the first time I used intravenous drugs. At that moment, I thought ‘yep that’s what I need’.”
Sean’s drug use worsened and he eventually moved to Ottawa before finding himself at Shepherds of Good Hope.
His first night here was Christmas Eve. He has been kicked out of another shelter on after being accused of selling drugs.
“I didn’t – trust me. If I had had drugs, I would have used them, not sold them,” he says.
He was sick, lonely, and cold.
“It was Christmas Eve. I didn’t have anybody. Without Shepherds, I don’t know what would have happened that night.”
Shepherds opened their doors to Sean and welcomed him in. Shepherds of Good Hope offers support without judgment for many who have substance use disorders.
“They don’t expect you to change to receive their help – they meet you where you are. This was so important for me. They did not judge me, and I so appreciated that.”
Sean started a drug user advocacy group called the Drug Users Advocacy League, or DUAL for short. This was a way for him to help himself while helping others. I really wanted to give back and I wanted to get better – so I started to.
“I lived in fear, constantly. I was losing close friends to overdoses. They had so much to live for – but there just weren’t the right supports available.”
DUAL started to hold meetings. Sean’s recovery went hand in hand with his advocacy. “The more I advocated for people who use drugs, the better I felt. The better I felt, the more I could advocate.”
Community support is so vital to the success of so many stories like Sean’s. There may still be hard days, but Sean says he wouldn’t change anything, because it’s led him to where he is today.
“I’ve got people that love me now, people that respect me. Shepherds, and so many other organizations in town, have helped give me life for the first time in forever,” Sean says. “And now, I am giving back, giving others the same support and opportunities people gave me.”
“At my lowest, I would wake up every morning and wish I hadn’t. Now I can’t wait to get up each day.”
“My drinking was out of control. I was suicidal. Then, a miracle happened — I found Shepherds of Good Hope.
– Tereza, resident at Shepherds of Good Hope’s supportive housing facility, St. Andrew’s Residence
TEREZA’S STORY
When Tereza was just 15 years old, she was forced to flee from her village in Sudan, where a violent civil war had claimed the lives of her entire family. Thankfully, the United Nations helped her come to Canada as a refugee.
“I can still remember how it felt when I landed in Toronto — hopeful. I knew I was finally going to have a better life,” says Tereza.
But things didn’t work out as she had imagined.
“TAKING THE EDGE OFF”
In Toronto, Tereza was introduced to alcohol. At first, drinking helped take the edge off of living in a strange new place. But only at first. Life in the big city became too much for her, and alcohol wasn’t making it any better.
Tereza moved to Ottawa to try and get her life back on track, but in her new home, her drinking habit only got worse. She tried a number of programs to quit, but none of them seemed to work.
Eventually, she was evicted from her apartment.
“My drinking was out of control. I was suicidal…I wanted to die. Then, a miracle happened — I found Shepherds of Good Hope. And that’s when everything changed.” Tereza remembers.
A DIAGNOSIS, A WAY FORWARD
She didn’t know it when she landed in Canada, but Tereza lives with serious mental health challenges. When she arrived at Shepherds, the staff helped her find a doctor who diagnosed her with schizophrenia and post-traumatic stress disorder. The doctor told her that in order for her to get better, she needed to stop drinking.
Before her diagnosis, Tereza had been drinking to help cope with the symptoms of her illnesses. But at Shepherds, she was able to get the support she needed to understand and manage her disorders.
“That was 23 years ago, and I have been sober ever since.”
“Thanks to Shepherds of Good Hope, I was able to turn my life around. That was 23 years ago, and I have been sober ever since,” Tereza says with pride.
“A HEALING PLACE”
Tereza spent two years in the Shepherds shelter, finding the stability she needed to regain control of her life. When she was ready, her Shepherds case worker helped her move into St. Andrew’s Residence — our supportive housing facility for men and women who suffer from mental health challenges and addictions, but who are able to live with a high level of independence.
“It’s such a healing place. The program staff are so supportive and are always there to help when you need them.” Tereza says.
Since moving to St. Andrew’s Residence, Tereza has redeveloped basic life skills, such as cooking and cleaning. She has also been able to continue her education, and is working on completing her high school diploma — something she never thought would be possible.
GIVING BACK
Tereza even finds the time to give back to her community by volunteering. Tereza uses her past experiences to help others who are suffering from mental health challenges. “It’s one of my greatest achievements. And it’s all because of Shepherds of Good Hope,” she says.
“All this is possible because of you.”
Tereza holds a special place in her heart for donors and volunteers who support Shepherds of Good Hope.
“All this is possible because of you,” she says. “I often wonder where I would be right now if you hadn’t taken the time to support Shepherds. I am grateful to call St. Andrew’s Residence my home, and I am grateful for people like you.”
WENDY’S STORY
“Teaching my family the importance of being altruistic and caring for others through my generosity is my lasting gift to them.”
– Wendy Stewart, Shepherds of Good Hope donor
WENDY’S STORY
Wendy Stewart is 90 years young.
She often says she knows she’s old, but she doesn’t fear her age. She knows she won’t be forgotten when her time comes to depart this life. Her values will be upheld, and her legacy will live on — in part through the people she helps with her generous support of Shepherds of Good Hope.
35 YEARS OF SUPPORT
Wendy is proud to say she’s been supporting Shepherds of Good Hope for almost 35 years. She feels an immense sense of pride knowing her support has helped Shepherds become the organization it is today; she likens it to watching one of her beloved children grow and mature.
Wendy was born and raised in London, England and moved to Canada in 1955. She worked as a nurse in England, and upon her arrival in Canada was hired on almost immediately at the General Hospital. She laughs quietly as she recalls, “It was much easier to get a job back in those days — it seemed all you needed was a strong work ethic and a dedication to your role.”
Wendy came to charity through her church, and gives to charities she feels have the greatest need.
Wendy lived in Lowertown when Shepherds of Good Hope was just starting. On her way to and from work, she would see the lineup of hungry people waiting outside Shepherds’ doors for the kitchen to open. Supporting Shepherds’ work made sense to her — helping those in need, in her own community.
She became a donor, and as her means grew, so did her support for the cause.
A BEACON OF HOPE
Wendy has two daughters and two granddaughters, whom she loves dearly. She feels blessed that they are healthy and prosperous. She knows that when she is gone, they will be well cared for and lead comfortable lives.
She wishes the same for the less fortunate, and that’s why she became a member of the Beacon of Hope Society for legacy donors — ensuring she can continue to help after she’s gone, by including Shepherds of Good Hope in her will.
“By ensuring my support of Shepherds of Good Hope continues past my death, I am ensuring there continues to be a guiding light for those in need.”
People often ask Wendy how her family feels, knowing she has left a portion of her estate to a cause near to her heart — and she tells them that her loved ones couldn’t be happier. Wendy claims transparency has made the experience of leaving a bequest even more enjoyable, as her family is able to share in her wishes while she’s still around.
“Money may come and go, but teaching my family the importance of being altruistic and caring for others through my generosity is my lasting gift to them,” she says.
“I believe Shepherds does a fantastic job being a leader in compassionate care for our community’s homeless. I like that they serve women and men equally and provide innovative housing solutions to those who are hardest to serve,” she continues.
OUR WORK IS HER LEGACY
Wendy will be turning 91 soon, and while she’s not sure how long she has left in this world, she knows she can continue to help us foster hope and reduce harm in Ottawa.
“What causes are important to you?” she asks. “Which of your values do you hope will be upheld after you pass? And what can you do to ensure that happens?”
Wendy knows she’s helped change many lives through her support of Shepherds of Good Hope. And now, she has the satisfaction of knowing that, with her help, Shepherds will continue to provide homes for all, community for all — and hope for all.
Or, as she puts it, simply, “Their work will be part of my legacy.”
KAREN’S STORY
KAREN’S STORY
After years of struggling with her addiction to alcohol, Karen lost her home, she lost her way, she lost all hope. The she found Shepherds of Good Hope.
Growing up in a military family, Karen moved around a lot. Every eighteen months or so, the family would pack their belongings and move to a new city. Karen was born in Germany and moved to eastern Ontario at a young age and then out to the East Coast and back again.
Every time the family moved, Karen’s parents would say “Don’t worry Karen. You’ll be fine. You’ll make new friends. It’ll be alright.”
But it wasn’t alright. Karen lost something dear every time her family moved. Her school. Her friends. Her room. Gone. Just like that.
However, there was always someone who helped her. A teacher. A neighbour. A new best friend. Someone always reached out.
The constant sense of loss followed her into adulthood. Her addiction to alcohol grew over time. She lost her home, her husband and she divorced, and she made the difficult choice of giving over custody of her kids to him.
“That’s when I found myself at Shepherds of Good Hope. By the time you realize what’s happening, you think it’s too late. You’ve lost something else – you’ve lost yourself. You wonder if you have the energy you need to reignite the light.”
The only thing that works, Karen says, is: love, hope and finding someone who cares about you.
Shepherds of Good Hope is filled with people who care about you. Staff, volunteers, and donors all come together and help people just like Karen.
“I moved out of the shelter and into a permanent home at The Oaks, one of Shepherds of Good Hope’s supportive housing residence. I’ll be honest with you, when I first arrived at The Oaks I didn’t think I belonged.”
“I had a normal life before, I was never supposed to end up at a shelter or live with a bunch of strangers.”
But, Karen knew she needed a change. She needed stability in her life and she knew she never wanted to be at a shelter again. “I was not what they call street smart,” she says.
Karen says she has grown to love it here. She has lived at the Oaks for nearly 5 years now and has met some of the most amazing people.
“The staff have helped me rekindle my relationship with my younger sister Abby after many years. I have created wonderful memories.”
If you knew Karen before, you’d know she loves to sing.
“The good news is, here, they’ve helped me find my voice again”
SEAN’S STORY
SEAN’S STORY
The more Sean advocated for people who use drugs, the better he felt. The better he felt, the more he could advocate for people who use drugs.
When Sean was a kid growing up in in the Maritimes, the only thing, he says, that kept him safe and in control was the baseball field across the street. It got him out of the house. It felt like home. It was a refuge from his abuser – his father.
Sean had to leave home at 13 to escape his alcoholic and abusive father’s cruelty. With nowhere else to go, He found himself living in the woods near his childhood home.
“For the first time, I experienced what it was like to be homeless, and it was terrifying. I felt like I had no one,” he says.
When the authorities found him, he was sent to a home for children who had nowhere to go. It was a place that was supposed to be safe for children. His first night there, Sean was sexually assaulted.
“My trust was shattered. After that, I wanted nothing to do with any social services – I didn’t trust them.”
As he grew up and moved away, Sean tried to move forward. He was accepted into St. Thomas University. It was there that he met a girl and she became pregnant. “We were so happy,” he remembers. But tragically, his girlfriend and his unborn child died in her seventh month of pregnancy.
“I was devastated.”
And that was it, as Sean put it, “I just didn’t care anymore.” He thought his new family would help him rise above the traumas he had suffered through in his short life. He had a “friend” who had just started using heavy drugs, and he asked Sean if Sean had ever tried them. Sean lied and said, he had.
“I stuck out my arm, and that was the first time I used intravenous drugs. At that moment, I thought ‘yep that’s what I need’.”
Sean’s drug use worsened and he eventually moved to Ottawa before finding himself at Shepherds of Good Hope.
His first night here was Christmas Eve. He has been kicked out of another shelter on after being accused of selling drugs.
“I didn’t – trust me. If I had had drugs, I would have used them, not sold them,” he says.
He was sick, lonely, and cold.
“It was Christmas Eve. I didn’t have anybody. Without Shepherds, I don’t know what would have happened that night.”
Shepherds opened their doors to Sean and welcomed him in. Shepherds of Good Hope offers support without judgment for many who have substance use disorders.
“They don’t expect you to change to receive their help – they meet you where you are. This was so important for me. They did not judge me, and I so appreciated that.”
Sean started a drug user advocacy group called the Drug Users Advocacy League, or DUAL for short. This was a way for him to help himself while helping others. I really wanted to give back and I wanted to get better – so I started to.
“I lived in fear, constantly. I was losing close friends to overdoses. They had so much to live for – but there just weren’t the right supports available.”
DUAL started to hold meetings. Sean’s recovery went hand in hand with his advocacy. “The more I advocated for people who use drugs, the better I felt. The better I felt, the more I could advocate.”
Community support is so vital to the success of so many stories like Sean’s. There may still be hard days, but Sean says he wouldn’t change anything, because it’s led him to where he is today.
“I’ve got people that love me now, people that respect me. Shepherds, and so many other organizations in town, have helped give me life for the first time in forever,” Sean says. “And now, I am giving back, giving others the same support and opportunities people gave me.”
“At my lowest, I would wake up every morning and wish I hadn’t. Now I can’t wait to get up each day.”
TEREZA’S STORY
TEREZA’S STORY
“My drinking was out of control. I was suicidal. Then, a miracle happened — I found Shepherds of Good Hope.
– Tereza, resident at Shepherds of Good Hope’s supportive housing facility, St. Andrew’s Residence
When Tereza was just 15 years old, she was forced to flee from her village in Sudan, where a violent civil war had claimed the lives of her entire family. Thankfully, the United Nations helped her come to Canada as a refugee.
“I can still remember how it felt when I landed in Toronto — hopeful. I knew I was finally going to have a better life,” says Tereza.
But things didn’t work out as she had imagined.
“TAKING THE EDGE OFF”
In Toronto, Tereza was introduced to alcohol. At first, drinking helped take the edge off of living in a strange new place. But only at first. Life in the big city became too much for her, and alcohol wasn’t making it any better.
Tereza moved to Ottawa to try and get her life back on track, but in her new home, her drinking habit only got worse. She tried a number of programs to quit, but none of them seemed to work.
Eventually, she was evicted from her apartment.
“My drinking was out of control. I was suicidal…I wanted to die. Then, a miracle happened — I found Shepherds of Good Hope. And that’s when everything changed.” Tereza remembers.
A DIAGNOSIS, A WAY FORWARD
She didn’t know it when she landed in Canada, but Tereza lives with serious mental health challenges. When she arrived at Shepherds, the staff helped her find a doctor who diagnosed her with schizophrenia and post-traumatic stress disorder. The doctor told her that in order for her to get better, she needed to stop drinking.
Before her diagnosis, Tereza had been drinking to help cope with the symptoms of her illnesses. But at Shepherds, she was able to get the support she needed to understand and manage her disorders.
“That was 23 years ago, and I have been sober ever since.”
“Thanks to Shepherds of Good Hope, I was able to turn my life around. That was 23 years ago, and I have been sober ever since,” Tereza says with pride.
“A HEALING PLACE”
Tereza spent two years in the Shepherds shelter, finding the stability she needed to regain control of her life. When she was ready, her Shepherds case worker helped her move into St. Andrew’s Residence — our supportive housing facility for men and women who suffer from mental health challenges and addictions, but who are able to live with a high level of independence.
“It’s such a healing place. The program staff are so supportive and are always there to help when you need them.” Tereza says.
Since moving to St. Andrew’s Residence, Tereza has redeveloped basic life skills, such as cooking and cleaning. She has also been able to continue her education, and is working on completing her high school diploma — something she never thought would be possible.
GIVING BACK
Tereza even finds the time to give back to her community by volunteering. Tereza uses her past experiences to help others who are suffering from mental health challenges. “It’s one of my greatest achievements. And it’s all because of Shepherds of Good Hope,” she says.
“All this is possible because of you.”
Tereza holds a special place in her heart for donors and volunteers who support Shepherds of Good Hope.
“All this is possible because of you,” she says. “I often wonder where I would be right now if you hadn’t taken the time to support Shepherds. I am grateful to call St. Andrew’s Residence my home, and I am grateful for people like you.”
WENDY’S STORY
– Wendy Stewart, Shepherds of Good Hope donor
JESSE’S STORY
“Teaching my family the importance of being altruistic and caring for others through my generosity is my lasting gift to them.”
– Wendy Stewart, Shepherds of Good Hope donor
WENDY’S STORY
Wendy Stewart is 90 years young.
She often says she knows she’s old, but she doesn’t fear her age. She knows she won’t be forgotten when her time comes to depart this life. Her values will be upheld, and her legacy will live on — in part through the people she helps with her generous support of Shepherds of Good Hope.
35 YEARS OF SUPPORT
Wendy is proud to say she’s been supporting Shepherds of Good Hope for almost 35 years. She feels an immense sense of pride knowing her support has helped Shepherds become the organization it is today; she likens it to watching one of her beloved children grow and mature.
Wendy was born and raised in London, England and moved to Canada in 1955. She worked as a nurse in England, and upon her arrival in Canada was hired on almost immediately at the General Hospital. She laughs quietly as she recalls, “It was much easier to get a job back in those days — it seemed all you needed was a strong work ethic and a dedication to your role.”
Wendy came to charity through her church, and gives to charities she feels have the greatest need.
Wendy lived in Lowertown when Shepherds of Good Hope was just starting. On her way to and from work, she would see the lineup of hungry people waiting outside Shepherds’ doors for the kitchen to open. Supporting Shepherds’ work made sense to her — helping those in need, in her own community.
She became a donor, and as her means grew, so did her support for the cause.
A BEACON OF HOPE
Wendy has two daughters and two granddaughters, whom she loves dearly. She feels blessed that they are healthy and prosperous. She knows that when she is gone, they will be well cared for and lead comfortable lives.
She wishes the same for the less fortunate, and that’s why she became a member of the Beacon of Hope Society for legacy donors — ensuring she can continue to help after she’s gone, by including Shepherds of Good Hope in her will.
“By ensuring my support of Shepherds of Good Hope continues past my death, I am ensuring there continues to be a guiding light for those in need.”
People often ask Wendy how her family feels, knowing she has left a portion of her estate to a cause near to her heart — and she tells them that her loved ones couldn’t be happier. Wendy claims transparency has made the experience of leaving a bequest even more enjoyable, as her family is able to share in her wishes while she’s still around.
“Money may come and go, but teaching my family the importance of being altruistic and caring for others through my generosity is my lasting gift to them,” she says.
“I believe Shepherds does a fantastic job being a leader in compassionate care for our community’s homeless. I like that they serve women and men equally and provide innovative housing solutions to those who are hardest to serve,” she continues.
OUR WORK IS HER LEGACY
Wendy will be turning 91 soon, and while she’s not sure how long she has left in this world, she knows she can continue to help us foster hope and reduce harm in Ottawa.
“What causes are important to you?” she asks. “Which of your values do you hope will be upheld after you pass? And what can you do to ensure that happens?”
Wendy knows she’s helped change many lives through her support of Shepherds of Good Hope. And now, she has the satisfaction of knowing that, with her help, Shepherds will continue to provide homes for all, community for all — and hope for all.
Or, as she puts it, simply, “Their work will be part of my legacy.”